August 1, 2012

Tears in Heaven


LAST NIGHT, I'm so much happy because the doctor said that my father was now in his recovery stage from stroke. I believe that's true, because he nodded his head every time we talk to him. I asked him if he can clearly saw me and he answered with a nod. His face clears up and his breathing goes back to normal. Sometimes... silent tears fell from his eyes. He seemed stable but most of the time he slept, but the brief times he was awake, I always comfort him with a touch on his forehead and that I will always cherish. I smiled and thank God.

10 o'clock this morning, I got a call from my mom and she said that my father is not breathing anymore. So, I rushed to the hospital to see my father, who have been there for two weeks. As I saw him lying on the bed, not moving, not breathing while my mom was crying, I broke down and cried heavily. I immediately shook him awake but got no response. I just sat beside him, I cried quietly, praying and waiting for a miracle.

We can't dance anymore like what I have said HERE. But hopefully we will - in God's time, in heaven!

Until now, I still can't accept it, he's only 59... why he leave us so soon? I know he's strong and brave and fighting that's why I still can't believe that this happened. I am having a very hard time on how to cope with this. Our life will never be the same without him. I can't take this pain its killing me.

Just writing this is exhausting and every few minutes I get tears so I have to take a break and continue later...

TEARS IN HEAVEN


Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven



Would you hold my hand

If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven



Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees

Time can break your heart, have you begging please, begging please
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven



Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven



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40 comments

40 comments

  1. MíšaAugust 1, 2012 at 4:46 AM

    Oh my god I am so sorry for your dad! Take care!

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  2. UnknownAugust 1, 2012 at 5:15 AM

    I'm so sad kuya Bernini abella dad past away too now I'm reading your article that your dad gone too condolence to you and to your family be strong.

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  3. UnknownAugust 1, 2012 at 5:16 AM

    Condolence to you and to your family be strong pretty girl :( so sad kuya Bernini abella dad past away also

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  4. UnknownAugust 1, 2012 at 5:16 AM

    I'm so sad kuya Bernini abella dad past away too now I'm reading your article that your dad gone too condolence to you and to your family be strong.

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  5. KataAugust 1, 2012 at 5:34 AM

    So sad!Oh dear i hope you much care,
    strong and love♥!God hands!

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  6. HazelAugust 1, 2012 at 5:45 AM

    Omygosh :( Sorry to hear about your loss. He's in good hands now, that's for sure. Be brave and strong for your mom and your family! *hugs*

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  7. HazelAugust 1, 2012 at 5:45 AM

    Omygosh :( Sorry to hear about your loss. He's in good hands now, that's for sure. Be brave and strong for your mom and your family! *hugs*

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  8. anneyAugust 1, 2012 at 6:07 AM

    Sorry to hear that your father passed away.My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. Hugsss!

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  9. KeitAugust 1, 2012 at 6:32 AM

    You're the strongest person I've ever laid eyes upon! A bow to your strength! I know how it is to loose a cherished one. Everything collapses and you feel as if this person is still with you, but he's not. And every time you realize he's actually gone, it's a nail through the chest. This pain sucks, but it makes us human. Although I don't know you, I sense you're a person who can cope with anything, not many people are like that. I really hope you feel better, don't get down, we're here for you. :*

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  10. Choi OlgaAugust 1, 2012 at 9:18 AM

    I am so sorry, dear~

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  11. UnknownAugust 1, 2012 at 11:17 AM

    Omg... I am so so so sorry for your loss.. Be strong, I'm sure he wouldn't want you to be in this state!
    xx

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  12. JennyAugust 1, 2012 at 11:48 AM

    Thanks :)

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  13. JennyAugust 1, 2012 at 11:55 AM

    before i wrote my first comment, i didn't read what you wrote in your post, only the comments..

    i'm so sorry for you.
    send you and your mom a big hug.
    be strong and carry on, i wish you the best.

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  14. NuellasourceAugust 1, 2012 at 2:54 PM

    I had goosebumps reading this I am not going to say stay strong or that I understand what you can feel but the only thing I have retained from life is that we have to let time and God cure our sorrow...
    Everything is gonna be okay and keep in mind that you dad is in a better place now...

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  15. Ericka GarciaAugust 1, 2012 at 5:06 PM

    Condolence to you and your family. May he rest in peace.

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  16. IzaAugust 1, 2012 at 5:30 PM

    This song is beautiful!
    I love it!
    xoxo
    Iza

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  17. Popcorn, Pugs & PeoniesAugust 1, 2012 at 10:30 PM

    I am so sorry to hear about you losing your father. I am sending many prayers your way.

    *Erin

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  18. Amy AguileraAugust 1, 2012 at 11:15 PM

    Good luck to him!
    Good luck to you!!!!
    msamyaguilera.blogspot.com
    Amy x

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  19. JennAugust 2, 2012 at 4:24 AM

    I'm so sorry...condolence to you and your family....:(

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  20. ROXYAugust 2, 2012 at 8:40 AM

    Condolence julie . Stay strong and keep praying . Everything has a reason. I know and we all know that your dad is happy wherever he is right now . hugs!



    --roxy
    itsjustroxy.blogspot.com

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  21. AnonymousAugust 2, 2012 at 9:19 AM

    so sorry for your loss, dear. hang in there.

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  22. carinaAugust 2, 2012 at 9:42 AM

    oh thank you so much! of course I follow you back :)xx

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  23. Elle SeesAugust 2, 2012 at 12:49 PM

    My heart is breaking for u!

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  24. SamAugust 3, 2012 at 4:10 PM

    Hi sweety, my heart goes out to you during this difficult time, I am so saddened to hear about your loss and will continue to keep you in my prayers. God has a plan for everyone, you must have faith in that. Try to be brave hun, Love and Hugs

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  25. DianaAugust 3, 2012 at 8:50 PM

    I'm so very sorry for your lost. My dad died a few years ago, and i kept asking why, he was young and had so many things he wanted to do with us too. I feel your pain, be strong. Condolence to you and your family

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  26. Mai YangAugust 3, 2012 at 10:32 PM

    oh my :( I am so sorry to hear that Julie. I don't know what to say.

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  27. Jedna slečnaAugust 4, 2012 at 6:04 AM

    yes, they are :) really? :)
    certainly, i ´m your follower:)
    have a nice day<3

    xoxo

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  29. Caro *August 5, 2012 at 1:37 AM

    I am sorry for you, be strong and take care.

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  30. Daniela MacsimAugust 5, 2012 at 2:19 AM

    I am sorry...just be strong!

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  31. StefaniaAugust 5, 2012 at 2:29 AM

    So sad!!

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  32. martiennAugust 5, 2012 at 4:03 AM

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  33. MateaTPolAugust 5, 2012 at 5:53 AM

    im so sorry for your dad, but best wishes to you and your family!

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  34. UnknownAugust 5, 2012 at 8:42 AM

    Wow, lovely blog!
    I'm your follower on GFC and new follower on Facebook, I hope you follow me back (GFC and FB PAGE) :)
    I wish you a beautiful day!
    Kisses


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  35. cAugust 5, 2012 at 8:51 AM

    that is such a lovely song!!

    <3

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  36. nanoooshAugust 5, 2012 at 3:33 PM

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  37. NicoleAugust 5, 2012 at 6:39 PM

    Thinking of you... I hope alll the best!

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  38. EverythingPrettyGirlsAugust 6, 2012 at 1:57 PM

    Oh my goodness. What a tearjerker. My heart goes out to you right now. Your post was lovely.

    xo
    Venessa
    http://www.everything-pretty.com/

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  39. Chyrel GomezAugust 6, 2012 at 6:55 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong.

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  40. AnonymousAugust 6, 2012 at 10:31 PM

    i hope your father has a speedy recovery!!! keep your head up and stay strong for him.

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